Wednesday, September 22, 2010
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Blooms During Sunshine
It's almost a year now and I've learned a lot of things during my journey. Being alone for a long time helps me to become stronger and a better person as I can. Looking back, I've suffered too much heartache, felt deprived and makes me think if I'm worth doing my time here. But instead of just feeling down and used, I shifted my focus to different aspects like my career, friends and my family. They've been a great part to my journey wherein I never felt alone through those times.
As of the moment I still enjoy the life of being free. I don't need to pretend and even please someone just to be accepted. During those times, I realized that I can have all the things I want if I only persevered and be patient, never rush through things. It would only come the way you wanted it to be.
I admit, I was quite busy looking for stones, that's why I've lost a diamond. In this life you will never imagine, that what you're looking for are just in front of you. You just need to be mindful and know when or how to open your heart. Sometimes the least you would expect are the ones you can truly rely on. I've been saving this for you. In times you will meet some wrong ones, for the time you had the right one you are already prepared. I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone. God has prepared something greater for me, the one who will complete my imperfections and I hope you could be that one.
“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off of course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away."
I will still wait for you.....This might not be the right time but maybe when we find ourselves again we can be together again and live our dreams eternally.
Posted by Czarenel at 9:04 AM
Friday, June 25, 2010
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"The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth."
To start with you cannot cover a lie with another lie, everything will be revealed and the truth shall prevail. It takes time before you realize and when the right time comes, it's really hard to accept the truth.
When you give everything you had to someone you love, it will be difficult for you to let go for a part of you was already used to that person. But remember there's no such thing as letting go, only moving on.
Nothing is permanent in this world as they say, so you must learn not to hold on longer to things you love most because they will also be lost and worst without knowing just like a thief in the dark. A friend once told me that we all don't die as virgins 'cause at the end we all die being fucked up!
It's also not good to use someone in order for you to move. We already know the feeling, why use it to someone? Wherein you know it won't give better endings, it will only make things worst.
I'm writing this for you, for him for all of us who suffered, been used and was fooled by people we cared, trust by the one we loved. Hope this serves as an inspiration to all. That by believing that we are all innocent, we are all just a victim and the best thing to do is to love ourselves before loving someone. It will take time but it will be worth the ride.
More L.O.V.E. ♥♥♥
Posted by Czarenel at 7:41 PM
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥ ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪ ♥ All I want this CHIRISTMAS is U ☺ ♥♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥ ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
Posted by Czarenel at 8:50 PM
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
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Hard day shoots
Yesterday I was booked for a whole day shoot in some hidden jungle in Davao City. So excited knowing that these will be another shot for me. This will be major for Thailand and Hong-Kong ads under my portfolio.
The sunlight was just perfect not to harsh for the lenses to capture me. Mr.Lim who happened to be my photographer that day was really challenging and motivated me to do well with my poses. I've been asked to laid into the grass (seriously it was itchy but I never showed it to him). I was also changing thru diiferent outfits and not to mention those quite expensive accessorize. We really have to move from spot to spot to have that what they call as a dramatic scene and we're never been disappointed by the weather.
This shoot was really very tiring but fortunately it turned out to be one of the best. I was very happy of the outcome.
I would also like to mention the presence of dear Allyn who was there for the reflector, lights and sort of my PA ( thanks a lot for that gurl)
Well be expecting the pictures to be finished within this week. Can't wait to show it also to you guys for all of you to know also that it was really a great shoot-full sweat and effort was there.
So see you then on my upcoming shoots and hopefully mainstream commercial ad this coming December~ciao!
Posted by Czarenel at 3:36 AM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
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This time it feels different felt like I was just a victim and it cuts me like a knife to know everything.
You said that you're still unprepared but willing to try, that's why I've given you another chance and respected that.
Now it's been a year but you we're still messed up, my trust was not there anymore and love changes to anger.
I remember your phrase still that you needed me but I guess you just needed someone you can use for your own cover-up.
A lie will never be covered by another lie.
I never done nothing against you, what I think my only mistake was just loving without expecting in return.
I tried to be there, be your shoulder and hold hands and now I'm sad to know your down 'cause I can no longer hold your tears.
You should have told me the real score maybe I'll understand your sincerity.
It tears me up inside to realized that I will be okay without you.
So long my heart no longer feels safe for you.....
Posted by Czarenel at 8:26 PM
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
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MIAMI -- It sounds like a new book in the Harry Potter series, but "Harry Potter and the Forbidden Journey" will be a high-tech ride and the marquee attraction at the "Wizarding World of Harry Potter," a new theme park area opening in spring 2010 at Universal Orlando Resort.
The "Forbidden Journey" ride was named by author J.K. Rowling and described Tuesday by Universal officials in a Web cast revealing details of what the Potter park will look like.
The ride will takes guests through scenes and rooms from the blockbuster movies inside a richly detailed remake of Hogwarts Castle made to look 700 feet tall. Hogwarts is where Harry attends a boarding school for witches and wizards.
Guests will enter the "Wizarding World" through a station archway named for Hogsmeade, the magical village near Hogwarts. A plume of steam and a train whistle will sound the arrival of the Hogwarts Express. The goal is to make the experience immersive, so nothing outside is visible after guests pass the Hogsmeade station archway.
Posted by Czarenel at 3:36 PM
Monday, September 14, 2009
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They are back! America's Next Top Model, Cycle 13 is the thirteenth cycle of America's Next Top Model and the seventh season to be aired on The CW network. It premiered on September 9, 2009. This cycle's catch phrase is "'The Lineup Is 5"7' And Under. Not The Usual Suspects. BOOK 'EM!", and the promotional song is "Good Girls Go Bad" by Cobra Starship featuring Leighton Meester.
The winner will win management and representation by Wilhelmina Models, a $100,000 contract with CoverGirl cosmetics and a cover and six-page spread within Seventeen magazine. The change from Elite Model Management to Wilhelmina marks the first change in prizes in six cycles. It should also be noted that Cycle 1 had a Wilhelmina contract as one of its prizes. The removal of judge Paulina Porizkova marks the first change in judging panel since Cycle 10.
This cycle has been moved back to Los Angeles, after being filmed in New York City for Cycle 12. The cast size is once again increased to 14 contestants, with each contestant being 5'7" or shorter.
Posted by Czarenel at 12:49 PM
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Great Day, it's been a while since I posted and reviewed my site and it's quite long then.
Anyways I've been to a new agency now and I'm glad I'm working for an international company for Ford Agency under Wilhemina Models but I honestly owe a lot from my previous agency under GLAM. I worked with a lot of professional photographers, MUA's(make-up artist), models, handlers and not to mention I had found some few lovers inside the house~hush:P.
Recently I just went to Victoria, Hong-Kong for a courtesy call for my mother agency and booked for several designers and photographers. My parents has no idea at all where I've been and even my friends and co-workers don't know the real score, they just know that I went out of the country for a holiday. Well I think it's time for everyone to know and I think we need also to just have some white lies right?
I met a lot of very well verse masters in their craft while staying in Hong-Kong. Most of them already worked with famous designers like Karl Lagerfeld, Zac Posen, Donna Karan etc. It was an extraordinary experience 'cause it helped me grow and learned so much. I was scheduled for Babyliss Titanium for hair art photography and casting for Richard Chai. I received good reviews. After appearing for a few appearance I went back to my hometown to submit my upgraded portfolio, also to sign a contract for my handler and new management to fix everything.
This week I'll be doing a photo shoot for LeadFotos cover for this season booked by Sir Paul. Later on we are also invited for a glow in the dark party, so definitely it will be so much of a kick-ass party.
That's much for me this week and hopefully more castings and bookings.....TTYS:>
Posted by Czarenel at 12:03 PM